Saturday, February 04, 2006
29b---Journal entry for January 22, 2003
Now, what happened is they continued to stalk her. And do til this day. That's another story.
And this is all part of this book she's writing.
Anyway. She moved to a new place and was discussing this with her mother. And a few times discussing this with her sister. Because, see, she has a mother and she has a sister. She has a family.
Oh, okay. Some people don't like it when you have a family when they themselves haven't got one. Anyway, some adopted nitwit overheard her because he was listening with his ear up against the wall and he decided to reenact the hate crime.
Now, see, he couldn't have done it if it was something out in the open. You know what I mean? But he figured that if she already went to the police repeatedly about something filed complaints against people, and still had to move out, that if she were to make the same claim again in a new neighborhood--it would look to like she was crazy! That's what he thought. The funny part is--it wouldn't look like she was crazy! That's what he thought. The funny part is--it wouldn't look like she was crazy. But she knew she wasn't gonna get anywhere without a witness so she didn't do it.
Nobody thinks it's crazy because they're doing this to people all over the city.
But, she needed at least one witness and she didn't get one witness.
She didn't get one witness. She has alot of people that don't give a fuck what happens to other people living around her. And she's alright with that because what goes around comes around.
But, anyway, this is what is happening to her. And she didn't do anything to anybody. Nothing. She has no record of ever hurting another human being. And this is what they are doing to her. Okay?
They are cowards. Anyway, so she has to write a book about this so that people will know what people are doing to people--right?
Anyway, as the book goes on she gets into this thing where she starts understanding the whole nature of the situation. And she goes on and she's putting it all down.
She spent alot of time trying to figure out motives, etc., and realized at some point that it really didn't matter what the motives were. See, the motives were that she was gay and she had a bunch of men attacking her. It's pretty clear what the motive was. Pretty clear.
Even though she was being attacked constantly, she was doing better than the heterosexual women around her. She knew that now because she knew that if they were actually living with these jerk-offs, they had it worse than her. It never occurred to her before. She was too busy living her own life--minding her own business.
But, anyway, as the saying goes. What happened was, with this new equipment they came out with, they were selling it to every weirdo in the city. And they had full intentions of putting it on women---both heterosexual and homosexual women. They'll put it on any woman -- that's basically it. It's kind of like a peep-show type of thing and this is the new weapon against women.
And there will always be weapons against women because women will always be beaten down by men. That's basically what this comes down to.
Of course, there are good men as there are good of everything, but there are enough bad ones that they're going to make life miserable for everybody. The only thing is that this is so sneaky--what they're doing now, that it's not able to be detected. See, what they do is scan the neighborhood first and they make sure that the people in the immediate area surrounding the person, are in agreement or will cooperate.
And all they do is find out if they're actually prejudiced against gays. And, you know, that's easy to find out. It's not always going to be possible for them to do this. If there's even one person who is a caring human being there they won't be able to get away with it.
Now, if they find anyone whose good who is afraid and has more fear than concern for other people--that person will be run right over because they know that person won't do anything. It's kind of like the school of hard knocks where people blame the victim. And, as long as they can blame the victim and get people to think "Oh well, ya know, it's their own fault, this or that..." then that's what they'll do. If you get someone who is afraid all you have to do is play with their fear.
So, anyway, as it turns out, this is what they'll be doing to many a person. And, it really means nothing to them. All they care about is that they get what they want.
And this is what they call masculinity. Ya got it? This is what they call being masculine--beating women down.
See? So, she now understands why they're so mad at her. She understands this now. She really does. She understands this totally now.