Monday, January 30, 2006
21a---Journal entry for September 3, 2002
"I hate child-molesters" she screamed, well almost, kind of loudly.
Little did she know that her neighbors were running something as disgusting as a child porn ring, right next door.
It's weird the way they not only heard that but were offended by it. That's like someone saying they hate murderers and a murderer hearing it and being deeply offended as if this were a hate crime against them. And yet, that's pretty much the way they took it.
They were offended but also wanted to hurt her for having the opinion, as if she were a disobedient child or something.
Looking back she realized that she said it loud because she instinctively thought they'd be in agreement, if they were to hear.
But they felt as though it was an insult. She still couldn't quite believe that attitude. She didn't want to figure them out anymore.
She wanted to understand the good people--the ones who accomplish the great things in the world. She knew she had to understand the idiots as well just so she could see and recognize them to protect herself. But, it was work.
She used to watch Jerry Springer to force herself to deal with the presence of stupidity. That was funny and informative. Alot of the intelligent people just don't believe any of those people are real. They believe that Jerry uses actors with scripts. She knew that truth was stranger than fiction and not only believed it but thought Jerry had tried to keep it somewhat clean. There's only so much anyone can take.
But, there was no way Jerry could have prepared her for these neighbors of hers. She had gone to Catholic school for the first 9 years of her life and "love thy neighbor" was the basis of 2 of the 10 commandments. Her love was very detached but she certainly respected others' until they actually offended her is some way. She never threw the first punch.
She hadn't known them until they attacked her. Had she known how they were she would have known she was surrounded by enemies the whole time.